I am doomed. Capital D, that rhymes with P, that stands for Pool . Yes, we've got trouble... Anybody who is a fan of old musicals will get the reference.
I work seven shifts in a row When I last signed off, I was originally going to work my usual night shift. However, I had been switched over at the last minute for the much dreaded training. There are references made in my blog to training, of which I am not a fan. Since my school days, I have not done well when I have had to speak before people. I am shy by nature. As a child, my family moved from North America to Europe and back again. I had to relearn the English language in a few months and I was bullied horribly for my accent. I have recently been placed on Topamax for my migraines and a side-effect of that medication is that the word may be in my brain but won't make it to my mouth. It's not P.C. to say it, but I feel slow. I prefer to sit in a corner and hide.
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Which brings me to training day. I had planned on doing my Christmas shopping after I got off my graveyard shift each day. I was already behind on everything, given the death of my father. Oops---no longer an option given I was now on Day Shift. Once upon a time, scheduling involved somebody with a pencil and an eraser. It's now several computers that don't speak to each other. I thus got phoned at midnight to enquire why I wasn't at work. After that, there was zero chance of my sleeping, even with all the Gravol I'd taken. I was cursing technology and my lot in life and that this could only be a harbinger of things to come. The rest of the week was the same. More Gravol and no sleep---none---nada. I just became more jittery and unable to function. So, as I went through the motions of "how to fall" while doing self-defence, I just wanted to keep laying on the mat. When I went into the dark, smoke filled environment looking for the dummy on fire training, I just wanted to crawl under the bed with her/it/him. There's a test on the parts of this contraption? I remember 2216 PSI. My brain isn't working. It's dark in here....I just need to sleep and I can only sleep in the day.
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Which brings me to now. I hit my two days off and of course I ended up getting a roaring headache. On the only two days when I could go shopping. As I said, it finally went away a few hours ago, just in time to do laundry, so that I could go back to work tomorrow night for another seven. I get to work Christmas yet again.
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The piece-de-resistance is that to get energy for that nasty week I ate and I ate and I ate. Oh, the horror!
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People will get their gifts when I get off my shift. I will be extra generous. I plan on buying my niece a lap-top (pink) as I will combine Christmas with her birthday in January. I will be Auntie Mame.
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And as to the training? Bah humbug to the stuff that I still have to do (the CPR and AED).
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Which brings me to now. I hit my two days off and of course I ended up getting a roaring headache. On the only two days when I could go shopping. As I said, it finally went away a few hours ago, just in time to do laundry, so that I could go back to work tomorrow night for another seven. I get to work Christmas yet again.
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The piece-de-resistance is that to get energy for that nasty week I ate and I ate and I ate. Oh, the horror!
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People will get their gifts when I get off my shift. I will be extra generous. I plan on buying my niece a lap-top (pink) as I will combine Christmas with her birthday in January. I will be Auntie Mame.
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And as to the training? Bah humbug to the stuff that I still have to do (the CPR and AED).
Something I didn't say in my California post is that our daughter had a terrible cold when we were there, and now I have caught it. I have three days to prepare for Christmas and now I just want to stay in bed and sleep. I empathize with your feeling of doom.
ReplyDeleteI've thought about starting another blog but I'm not sure if I will or not. I don't want it to be found by a certain person as a way of checking up on me since they're too much of a coward to contact me directly. I also fear all of my anger and depression would be too much to spew onto the internet and I might post things that I'll only end up regretting like last time.
ReplyDeleteI'm working a double shift this Christmas so one less person has to be there. Why allow someone else to miss family time when basically I have no family or loved ones?
I've also been suffering from daily headaches and aches and pains all around. I'm hoping this coming year will be better, but realistically I doubt it since the last 4 years have been a consecutive shit fest. But I hope 2012 will be a good year for you.
Judy---I hope you feel better. I think that travel is great but there's just something not right with that recycled air. Don't push yourself, as you will only feel worse.
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Hester---I hope you don't let somebody else control your desire to write. If nothing else, get a notebook. I began doing that because of my discomfort with the Topamax and how words lodged in my head. I now find that bringing my notebook with me (in the summer) to the local garden is a great way to vent, if need be. I will also go in early for the holidays, although I am actually only paid for my shift. I did this last year also. I went in about three or four hours early each day to get somebody home with their families. I ended up getting a very nice thank-you note. Take care and I do look forward to a blog next year.